there are some times when you are just so sad that you feel like you will be sad for the rest of your life.

I found out two heartbreaking things on the car ride home tonight.

A woman who goes to my church, is the mother of a guy I knew well and played with in a band at coffee houses, and is a good family friend, relapsed. She has breast cancer again and it sounds like it is bad. She has been cleaning out things in their home for when it’s just “the guys,” meaning her husband and two sons.
A friend from church who was in my weekly sunday school class, confirmation class, youth group, and who also played in a band with me, was in a car accident last night. He was driving and hit another car that came into the road unexpectedly (says a witness). Someone in the other vehicle was killed. He is my age and he killed someone. And it looks like neither speed nor alcohol were involved. And I can’t even fucking imagine how that feels.

I don’t know what to be more sad about. About the friend with breast cancer, about her family who is slowly preparing for her to not be around, for the family of the car accident victim, or for my friend who was the one who hit him.

I feel like I can never be happy again. And I know how much of an exaggeration that is. But it is how I feel.

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zennyphenomina said: prayers. I will be praying for you too.
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christinacastle said: :( i will pray for these people
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